Wednesday, December 31, 2014

New Year new Me?


 So let's be honest. Every year on December 31st you're supposed to lay out your resolutions. Stop drinking. Get a gym membership. Save more money. Be nicer to people. Find a better job, etc, etc. The list goes on and on, and every year on January 1st, people use the saying, "New Year, new me!". However, how many people do you think actually keep this? I know that I for one have the hardest time keeping these, because lets face it, resolutions are hard. We hold ourselves at a much higher expectation than what we are used to, expect more from ourselves to get done in a certain amount of time than what we commonly do.
 That's why I will be doing my best not to use the saying, "New Year, new me!" because frankly I don't see my journey as a new me, I'm looking at it as becoming myself.  I want a healthier life, I want to feel good about myself every time I go shopping and something cute fits me in a flattering way. This is truly for myself and I would have it no other way, to have it be for any other reason than for myself would be stupid and would never work.

 There is a quote that says, "No matter how slow you go, you are still lapping everyone on the couch." and it is quite true, this isn't going to happen overnight. I have my own pace, and my own limits I have to work with.  However I do have a fire burning within me to push in this journey.  One of the main things that can cause a backtrack in weight loss is mindset and I know that will be one of my main struggles. The constant, "I can't do this" will pop up when I am my weakest and when I feel I cannot go any further, but I can do this. I will do this. I will not fail.
 FOOD!!! SODA!!! I cannot say enough how difficult this is to deal with. As of December 30th, I have cut myself off from sodas, not even diet sodas (Mostly because diet sodas are disgusting and said to be worse for you).  Today I actually was getting soup for one of my sister's boyfriend and had a thought to get him a soda while I was at it, but the thought of a Mountain Dew made me want one just for the taste and I couldn't even bring him one.  I do not doubt I will go through many stages of dealing with quitting cold turkey but it will get better and I will be better for it.
 Junk food I don't seem to be around as often as sodas but I know I need to make better eating choices. Chicken is a bit of a problem as far as it being grilled or fried, more often than not I do not like grilled chicken and so I don't order it. But I know that I have to cut back on the fried things to hopefully nothing fried. One of my goals through this is to learn new recipes and try them. anything I make with a new recipe I will definitely post about on here and maybe some of you will recommend some recipes to me!
 To give you an idea of what I'm dealing with body wise, When I walk my feet tend to turn inward, putting a strain on my ankles so I wear a wrap on my right ankle to help support and keep my ankle from rolling on me. I also have to do ankle exercises to strengthen the muscles (Which I am horrible at remembering to do them). I'm trying to rebuild my walking tolerance, not only for my journey but also for an upcoming trip to Disney World so that I can go longer lengths of distance without tiring easily. Hills are my enemy, as are paths that are angled rather than flat. I'm not ready to disclose my weight but I will say I am my heaviest I have ever been and that is so painful to acknowledge. That pain however helps my motivation and I know this to be true.

 This brings the end of my first ever post of my journey, and it won't be the last of that I am determined. 
Until next time lovelies.